The Throwaway: I Was Only Passing Through

I often imagine myself, an astronaut stranded from his ship, drifting in space, looking down at earth with a smile. I am content with my life I have done everything I said I was going to do and if I am to die here. I died doing what I was meant to do.

I often imagine myself as a super hero drifting in space looking down on earth knowing one day I will return, but for now I am tired I must rest.

I recently went back home for a short period of time with my tail between my legs. I needed to recuperate from the years long travel I have been doing. I had to get at least a few of my eggs in the basket. I couldn’t wait for all of them. It takes too long and every one wants to do something, but they always wait for that perfect time. That perfect time never comes. When you get the chance you go, you go. 

I recently went back home for a short period of time and visited the clothing store I used to work at. The owner told me everything I ever said I was going to do, I did. People talk, but I do. That’s all I ever wanted out of my life, to be a doer and to get the recognition for it.

What do I do? I live, I exist within the parameters of what I want out of my life. I have met a lot of great people. Seen many great things. Experienced things some people just won’t understand. 

I am a desperado, a lone wolf, here today and gone tomorrow, but I also know I am only a cog in the spaceship earth and incorporate myself into the society and community I am in. 

I sit upon a horse with an arrow in my back, looking at the landscape, visualizing in my head all of the beautiful people I have met in my life. I am a different thing to each and everyone of them. 

I sit at the bottom of the sea with an oxygen tank running low wondering if I should return to the surface, or keep exploring.

I am on the Bering sea, I am in the Caribbean.

If you have ever met me, even so briefly, I would say you know me. Even if it be some minute detail such as the sound of my voice or the color of my eyes and I the same to you.

If we have had companionship than maybe you consider me a friend or a lover.

If I have upset or hurt you maybe you consider me something else.

If we shared a beer together, or shared the ring together. Thank you.

But, I am traveler, a wonderer, an explorer,

So,

If you have ever seen me I was only passing through.